Wednesday, April 17, 2013

A post with a little bit of everything

So today I guess I have a lot to say haha.  Now since this is supposed to be a beauty blog, I guess I will start off with the makeup portion.

I have been doing so much better wearing color.  I'm proud of myself for getting back into it a little bit more. Still nothing crazy but I've definitely been playing more.  This is just a basic green look that I did.

What I used:
Too Faced Shadow Insurance
All eyeshadows by Makeup Geek:
"Poison Ivy" all over lid
"Shimmermint" on inner 2/3 of lid
"Envy" on outer 1/3 and outer v area
"Corrupt" to darken outer v
"Latte" to blend up 
"Bling" as highlight color

I liked this look.  I thought it was pretty and wearable but still had a little punch of color.

Now I don't think I ever told you guys that in January I had a CT scan done.  It's always so nerve-wracking to have one done.  The last thing you want to hear is that they found something.  As much as I felt they weren't going to find anything, especially since I had just finished my IV chemo, you just never know.  So I met with my liver surgeon to go over the results and he came back and said everything is good.  My CT scan review read, "no evidence of metastatic disease."  I was thrilled.  And then he told me that I could continue doing my follow-up scans closer to home if I wanted to and that I could forget he ever existed.  I told him that it is impossible for me to forget he existed one, because he helped save my life, and two because I have some nice scars from him on my belly.  

I'm really self-conscious to do this, but I'm going to show you my tummy so you can see what I mean when I say I can never forget him haha. So here it is:
The top scar is from my liver surgery.  As you can see, it's a pretty decent sized scar.  It goes up a little more than what you can see.  The lower scar is from my left hemicolectomy and that goes down a little farther than my pants line.  And then the random other little scars are either from my laproscopic surgery for my bowel obstruction or they're from drains from the more major surgeries.  I'm lucky that apparently I'm a good healer.  My scars have faded a lot.  The lower scar is a little over a year old and it's really not terribly visible.

I am not embarrassed of my scars or of anything I've gone through.  I'm just not a belly show-er haha.  

Now, on the day I got my CT scan results back, I was so happy.  Until I went on facebook to post about it. There I saw that my husband's cousin had lost a friend to cervical cancer that same day.  It is unbelievably difficult to be happy for yourself when someone else just lost their fight.  And this is something I'm really really struggling with.  I'm so so grateful for being cancer-free but I cannot understand why I am and other people aren't.  Why did I respond so well to chemo and other people don't?  I mean, yeah, I fought, but they fought just as hard as I did.  Yeah, my family needs me but their families need them too.  I almost feel guilty for being healthy when other people who have been through the same thing I have aren't responding the same way I did.

But I am doing everything in my own personal power to make sure my cancer doesn't come back.  As I said in my last post, I've changed the way I eat and have started juicing and drinking a lot of green smoothies.  So I thought I'd share one of my favorite juice recipes with you!  I'm telling you, it's soooo yummy.

What it calls for:
4 oranges, peeled
1 medium sweet potato (you can peel it if you want, but I leave the skin on for the nutrients)
3 stalks of celery
a chunk of ginger

Juice them all up and here's what you get!
Why is this juice good for you?
Oranges support your immune system, combat cancer, protect your heart, and support respiration.  Sweet potatoes protect your eyesight (better than carrots, even), combat cancer, lift your mood, and strengthen your bones.  Celery fights cancer, lowers cholesterol, aids digestion, alkalizes the blood, lowers blood pressure.  And ginger fights nausea, maintains normal blood circulation, strengthens immunity.  All of these ingredients do so much more than what I've listed.

And the main difference between juicing and smoothies is that with juicing, you remove all of the fiber.  There are debates all of the time about what's actually best for you.  I do both so there's no debate for me haha.  Juicing helps you to directly absorb the macro-nutrients in whatever you've juiced since your body doesn't have to break it down.  This is great for people who have digestive issues.  One of the benefits of smoothies is the fact that it does have the fiber and it slows the rate at which you absorb the sugars and your blood sugar won't spike like it could with a juice.

One of my followers, Sylvia, suggested I read "Eat to Live" and I fully intend on doing that!  Any other recommendations are more than welcome!  I really feel blessed that I've had support in learning what foods can do for me.  One of my friends actually got her certification in holistic nutrition and she has been incredibly helpful to me.  I'm always asking her questions haha.  I've just been so frustrated with the fact that I specifically have asked all of my doctors and the dietitian at the cancer center if there were foods that could help and they all told me no, that nothing had been proven.  I've learned differently.  I was not looking to substitute the chemo, I just wanted something in addition to the chemo to help my odds.

I want to thank you all for being so amazing to me throughout everything I've been through.  Your support has meant more to me than I could ever explain to you!  Thank you all so much!  I hope you're having a great week!


  1. Your juice recipe sounds really tasty. I'm not a "juicer" but this kind of recipe might make me become one (I LUV anything with Ginger)!
    Thank you for sharing your stories, your courage is an inspiration!!! I'm glad you CT scan came back normal!!!

  2. I am so happy to hear that you're doing okay! Thank you for sharing your story. You have great courage! Wishing you all the best xx

  3. So happy first of to see a post from you and to hear how good your doing! You look beautiful and I am so happy your feeling good. Thanks for sharing your story with us and showing us how things can get better. Its heartbreaking when they don't but you have to know its out of our control, all we can do is support and be there for those in times of need.

    I am not a juicer at all! Not that I don't want to be, I just haven't gotten into it. This sounds great though! I might have to try it here and there and see where I go with it :)

  4. Ginger is a hard one to get down for me, but when I mix it it's doable hehe. I know that its got so many good benefits so that also helps. Glad to see a new post from you!

  5. Thanks for sharing, it's always nice to read a post from you!

  6. For this month I have been drinking green smoothies almost everyday and I want to try juicing but I don't have a juicer anymore. Happy to see that your still doing well :)

  7. Glad to hear you are doing well!

  8. A beautiful eye makeup look and very happy to see you are doing well :D

  9. Always nice to see you show up in my blogroll, Sonja. Nothing makes me happier than to see you looking beautiful and feeling better. I hope this happy healthy streak continues for a long time coming. I have been casually trying to live a healthier lifestyle lately but fell off the bandwagon last week. This is just the kind of inspiration I need to get back at it. xoxo, Meredith

  10. Glad to hear you are doing well, wish you the best :) Would like to see more smoothies ^^ Thanks for sharing all this with us, not everyone has the same courage. Keep it up!

  11. So glad to know you're doing good! I think you should watch Fat, Sick & Nearly Dead on Netflix too :)

  12. So Happy to Hear That You're Doing Good .. :)

  13. Glad to hear that you're doing well!

  14. Glad you're doing so well and looking as beautiful as ever!

  15. Your posts always bring a tear to my eye! I am so happy to hear you are doing well. You are so courageous to share your scars and expereince with your followers! You are such a strong, inspiration and beautiful woman!

  16. My coworker is a breast cancer survivor and she swears on juicing kale, everyday, so I thought it might be a suggestion for you too

  17. You are very inspirational, and that juice sounds very yummy!

  18. Hi, thanks for sharing. I hope you are using organic celery as it is one of the vegetables that has more pesticides. Best wishes!

  19. those scars will fade even more! I have one (from surgery, big one) and it is almost invisible! of course you can see it if pay attention to it but still.

  20. Glad to hear your doing well and your makeup look is so pretty!

  21. I've just discovered your blog and it's so inspiring to see what you have gone through. It's really great that you are doing well. I love this green makeup look - it's gorgeous!!

  22. Sounds yummy! I'm Hispanic and overweight, so I'm looking for healthy and nutritious but tasty recipes to help curb hunger and reduce my risk of heart disease and diabetes. I will definitely give this one a try! So happy to hear your stories and looking forward to more recipes.

  23. I really love your eye make-up!

  24. I'm glad that you are feeling better and posting again! My mother-in-law just passed away from advanced metastatic cervical cancer, and my best friend's mother was just diagnosed with stage iv colon cancer. We're all trying real hard to stay positive right now and this post gave me hope that maybe this time we will beat the cancer. I'm going to share your blog with my friend and her mother, she'll love the juice recipes and your uplifting and inspiring posts.

  25. Hi! I came across your blog when I was searching about Monistat ACG as a face primer, lol. However, when I read about your stage IV cancer and everything, I found myself in tears. I think you're a strong, beautiful person. Your scar doesn't look half as bad as mine (one I had ever since I was six years old because of appendicitis) and you're gorgeous, I just wanted you to know that. I'm glad to know you're doing well. More power to you and I pray for a speedy recovery. Take care! Mwuah! ^^

  26. you are gorgeous and an inspiration!!!! thank you soooo much for sharing your story <3

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  27. hei you I came across you in the Gallery section at Marlenas Makeup Geek pages and many are beautiful and so are you something truck me about you out of all the looks.
    When I read your pprofile on your blog I understood why.
    I am so proud of you and I wish I could help you understand its not about being needed or more or less worthy of staying here or not.
    I understand the guilt of feeling why me when other people dont make it.
    I belive everything happens for a reason and I belive that if you are here and they have gone home to their other relatives it simply means it wasnt your time and they have other things to do..
    I lost my mom at 50 and she had been so sick for many years and my siblings was mad at her for dying cause she had been so sick for ever in theier memories.
    However I understood she felt she could no longer hold on and I let her go as I said we meet again and you go do your stuff now.
    I feel her around me,not so often but sometimes. I feel she is free and beautiful and healthy and happy.
    I miss her every day,but it makes me greatful for knowing her the time we did share <3
    I belive YOU have plenty left to do HERE and thats why you heal well and you are cancerfree and you shouldnt feel survisors guilt as this is YOUR life enjoy it and embrace it however short or long it might be. Its yours and dont let others loss take anything away from your own fight and your seccess.
    Noen of them would want you dead .it wouldnt give them their loves ones back.
    They are HAPPY for you -we all are!

    Stay posotive and beautiful and lovingly
    Angesl watch your path
    ~Lin ( Norway )

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